Edz1228

2011-06-10T18:53:00.000-07:00

We're back together for a week. Really appreciate and happy with her but still there's some argument applied. Lucky is not that serious, if not, bye bye again -.-''

Dont think i wanna write much, cos i know she'll read my blog some times...

Anyhow, i just wanna be happy with her. Hope she'll announce me to friends and family. Cos i dont like to be keep as secret.

2011-05-28T10:18:00.000-07:00

What do u want for yourself?

I barely know the answer.

Its not ok for me but i'll still have to be.

Wish you got the best for your life and congrats that you can forget me so fast and be with him just like that...

2011-05-09T07:49:00.000-07:00

finally, i saw u update about me. but sadly, u close it right after i send u a sms.

haiz... what can u get when u hide urself away from a person u love?

to me, i rather u talk with me and solve things out. rather than making us heart aching or missing each other like this.

just say if u dont want me anymore, i'll do as u wish.

i cant do it last time cos i'm not conscious that time, but now i'm different, i dont know u believe of what i say or not, i just need u to trust me one more time, that's all... nothing else my dear...

2011-02-10T08:34:00.000-08:00

Too many hatred in this blog...

Too much questions on my mind.

Lazy to write about it...

End of story...

Awaiting for new beginning...

2011-02-08T07:41:00.000-08:00

who make me mad who will die!

this is wat i assure u!

2011-02-07T08:16:00.000-08:00

Well well, just something in my mind is bothering me... she said she never love me or want to be with me for the past 3 months.

But one thing for sure is she did still slept with me for the past 3 months.

So, who on earth can tell me what's this?

Should i trust? or no?

I just wonder is she treating others the same? where those idiot invite her to their house...did she go? i dont know... i know nothing about her at all...

2011-02-07T07:51:00.000-08:00

I'm so disappointed...

The women i love go and tell her friends i'm a stalker and so on...

Well, she dont love me that's why she say those to her friends...

What a joke... i stalk? no i dont and i never did!

2011-02-05T09:20:00.000-08:00

Tiring but happy to celebrate this year's chinese new year.

It's been the 4th day spending time with parents and relatives the whole day.

The most meaningful celebration so far (i think).

Spend time with cousins and uncle auntie watch movie today, haha, yeah, same movie with her (i love hong kong). Funny movie, laughing all the way. (Dont know is this coincidence or what, but i dont really want to think about it, no choice, it's still memories still coming back to me.)

The most meaningful is not those i mention above, is about my family. We went yam cha after a short gambling. Went to puchong boulevard with cousins and uncle aunties.

Didnt sit with my cousins, cos they sit inside, and i'm with my uncle (ex boss) and his wife and 2 more aunties at outdoor.

At first we did talk and laugh, then slowly, history comes... they talk alot which i dont know those things at all, i really feel i'm so small in this world when i'm listening. Even my tears almost drop off but i insist to stay strong and listen to what they says.

Is very long story, i just keep quite and listen and listen. I'm so regret... seriously!

Regret of why i take things for granted and selfishly. All i think is about myself! But after listening to their talks, my uncles and aunties are so GREAT! Including my parents!

I really want to cry...

(I really hope things could turn back. I'm regret.)

2011-01-31T04:34:00.000-08:00

I really dont know what can i do to solve the problems we have.

When i hear you say that you're not at home, the 1st reaction of mine is think that you're at some one's home. I dont know...i dont know can i still trust you.

But i'm glad you gave me answers today.

I dont get it, when i beg for it i wont get answers. Even when i talk nicely, i also cant get it. But today, i call you till you get mad, then only i get answers.

I know the situation between us has gone badly. Too bad to fix it back again. It's my fault. I shouldnt leave you at the 1st place.

I'm sorry...i couldnt trust you anymore.

I'll keep my promise, i wont disturb you anymore.

-End-

2010-12-18T07:22:00.001-08:00

Thank you for supporting me from behind.

Love is not a thing i could do alone.

Sadly, hopes you gave, went off just like that.

Is ok, i'll stay strong.

Just be the way you are.

Appreciate what you've done for me.

Deeply in my heart, i know.

But no use to just keep in heart, brain is not keeping it.

As i said before, long long time ago, i got short term memory.

I've got to cure it.

There's no turning back anymore.

Things happened couldnt change.

I just need to move on.

As you're not by my side, is ok.

Because you'll be forever in my heart even tho my brain is not functioning.

Love is really incredible. It can make you happy and even go wild.

I'm almost 27, but i'm not the same as others that are same age.

I'm just a burden.

2010-12-09T13:15:00.001-08:00

I really wish to be with you right now...this moment...onwards...

2010-12-09T03:03:00.000-08:00

Had the biggest and longest fight on tuesday. Shouting, screaming, fighting, bleeding and so on...

I never bother to blog about it actually. Because there's something still bothering in my mind and i dont know how to tell it out or discuss.

Come to think back, i wish i wasnt that jealous about small things. But when that happens, it automatically reminds me those unwanted memories again.

I'm really tired... mental almost collapse if i keep thinking. I really wish all the things would come to an end. But do i still want to keep it to myself? or speak it out with her again? I'm not sure what will happen again if things dont go well. Because we never had a good conversation. I started the fight each time when 3rd party or i should say some one else involve. I couldnt control it.

There's something that actually can calm me down. Is when she hold me tight. Like the day we fought. In the end, she hold my arm. Hugging tightly together. I'm so relieve. Because she's the one that i love. Which i know there's no one else beside me she'll love.

It seems nothing for me to worry about. But no, there is.

Why? Why she told me she hardly talk to guys on msn or phone. But she did tell her friend that she's going to PD? She told me before that she wont tell any guy about it, nor any guy will ask her where is she. But there's this fact after i saw it with my own eyes. And even a guy taking her phone to take photo? why? i cant even look at the phone but she let other people touch her phone? What's with her? I promise that i'm just having a look. But still i'm not allowed.

My concern is, she told me she's not close with guys, she's not talking to anyone of them. But what's those? It's really triggering my bad emotions. I dont want that to happen on me tho...

I just want to live happily with her. But why she cant understand? Why she still want to hang out with them? Why she needs to tell anybody but me where she is? Are they fun to hang out with? Am i bothering her to get happiness with them? I dont know! Why must i be left out?

Geez... those symbols ---> ??? keep coming out from my head.

I really dont want to think write this out, but if i keep keeping it to myself, i'll burst even worst. Just like that day, i even want to die.

I'm really happy after the fight. I feel your love. Until the next day, it slowly disappear. Until today, i still got those single word replied. And those unhappy sentence... I really wish to know, what are you thinking? Why must i got those reply from you but not others who ask you to go out? Are they more important than me? Are you happy to keep me away from them? Cant bring me out to meet them? Well... i know the answers, but i wouldnt like that to happen.

I'm weak...such a weakling...coward...useless...hot temper... I really dont know how long i can stand or how long i could hold my emotions from going berzerk...

I just wish we could talk.

Tamie, I Love You.

2010-11-16T09:23:00.000-08:00

Hate you better than loving you anymore.

Janeh

2010-10-08T10:46:00.000-07:00

I'm nervous till i cant really sleep. Keep rolling on the bed.
Then i decided to get up and write about it.
Was thinking back how's our relationship last time and what happened then.
I'm surprised. That i realise is all because of me.
I'm no use. What i think of is just me. But what to do with a selfish man like me?
I cant hold up and keep thinking and thinking over about it.
And i've figure out that i cant be alone, i need you badly but yet, things had happened, there's not turning back.
I cant change myself up to now. I've lost trust on you. No matter how hard i work out myself, is just me. I'm just working all alone. Yet, i dont want this to happen. I cant do it alone. Why must i do it myself when is needed 2 to work out on a relationship.
Since you've told me the truth that you dont love me, but you want to create back the love like we had last time. I'm sorry. I couldnt. It's out of my limit to do so. And there's no guarantee for it.
What you hope and what i hope is the same. Is still hope without any action.
I really hope and wish you for the best. You'll eventually found one in future that's better than me and love you more than me.
Lets let it go. Dont think about it anymore.
Sorry Tamie.

I love you.

2010-10-08T02:08:00.001-07:00

A little nervous now, wonder how would i do tomorrow. Hope i can encounter it =)

2010-10-06T05:45:00.000-07:00

Sunday, is a big day for Thomas and Leng Yein.
Receive a phone call from Thomas this afternoon.
Am glad that i'm invited to their wedding =)
Hmm...wondering should i go alone?
Well, yes maybe, since no one can be my partner that night.

2010-10-05T14:13:00.000-07:00

So miss the days where we both sleep together, wake up together, eat together and do things together.
Really, i really enjoy those days, especially cleaning the house together =)

2010-10-05T09:01:00.000-07:00

I dont want to get mad anymore, yeah, as soon as i'm not seeing you or communicating with you. But this isnt a way to improve our relationship and i'm tired being one sided all this while.
I'm taking some time to think about it again, do i really can accept you or not. I'm really tired to talk alone, think alone, do alone and being alone.
I shall calm my self in this period of time.
Anyhow, i dont want this to affect my up coming tournament which starts on this coming saturday @ 12pm.
Take care and sleep well, i hope you'll be healthy as always.

2010-10-02T07:42:00.001-07:00

thanks for letting me know who you are now and its made by your friends, yeah, liar...

having a liar girl friend? no way... always lies... hiding... and i really dont know, had u slepy with others? oh well, i also dont want to stay in this kind of friendship or relationship.

Liar is always the one fight back!

2010-10-01T09:58:00.000-07:00

i'll be leaving you alone. i guess, i'm not the right person for you.

2010-09-28T08:54:00.000-07:00

What you dont like, i cant do.
What i dont like, non of my business.
How great is this relationship?
Aint a relationship suppose to coupe with each other?
No? Yeah no! cos life is not fair!
Always you're the one who can do this do that but i cant!
So, nvm la... take it or leave it...
I'm leaving it now... let you be the one you want to be... nothing to do with me...

2010-09-25T12:02:00.000-07:00

tamie chan, this is the last i'm gonna write about you in my blog.

u screw things up now. i've been trying to be patient to wait for u, but now, u tell the whole world about me, show the msg i sent, passing ur phone to others when i call. greatly done.

i'm suppose to be happy when i see u finally msg me, but is too late now. i've deleted everything of u in my laptop. not even a single photo of us. not anymore. i've block u in msn, so i wont receive or get to write u any msg while u're deleted from my list too.

what i'm gonna say is, everything i've done (cry, wait, work) is pointless to keep in mind. today, is my last cry over u. tomorrow onwards, good bye. i'll pack everything u give and dump it off. i will not keep anything that related to tamie chan.

so now, u can continue having ur own fucking life. and my last word to say, CURSED THEM ALL!!!

-already ended story-

2010-09-24T09:50:00.000-07:00

SO RANDOM FROM YOU!!!
*but i never thought that you'll get attraction by me still*

2010-09-14T11:51:00.000-07:00

Is really no turning back, what you think is for yourself, for your own good, own happiness. Well, humans are selfish... but i really cant accept you're like that. How you told me things before had made me changed my thinking. I'm trying to keep it up but you given it up.

You like to hang out with guys? Flirt with guys? Sleep with exs? Date guys?
Okays... i cant stop you... do as you like... I'll do the same as you but double them!
I want you to regret how you treat me now.

2010-09-12T09:43:00.000-07:00

Block blog...haha... only allow for invited readers... yeah, invite that chibai nut la... i know you will, cos you never kept your promise. LIER WHORE!

2010-09-12T09:14:00.000-07:00

who's impolite? who's no manners?

i think you should know better than me, right?

Take a recall, how i sms you? what i say to you?

"Hi, how are you?"

or i should tell you things like "hi, wanna hook up tonite and sleep together?"

haha...i doubt you like the 2nd one more =)

Recieve from someone is past... and yet what do i get now? LIES...

2010-09-12T08:50:00.001-07:00

i really wonder what you want. i try to hold on the relationship for 2 years. and yet?
what u r trying to do?

u get into a new one.
then u ask me to go with ur way if i want to get back with u.
n u dont wan to leave that girl first because of me?
what is this?
y cant u leave her first to prove it to me, tat u dont lie to me. then only i submit to u.

y must u ignore me?
ignore my call just because u say u wan to work, things to discuss.
so where will we be meeting or chatting if we are couple?
i dont think there is a chance

what i want, i have state clear.
n y u cant accept my condition.??

i want 2 years to be in friends mode. I don mind being close as friends. because i wan u to know more about me first and even all my friends, before anything.

i can, not talk to guys which u dont like. but is only 2 of them. i can cast 2 of them
but if they call, i will try not to entertain them
i cant stop them.
they have their freedom.
but what r u trying to say?

u say u will change too... but i dont see it now that u will.
u say u will try to accept. No such things in this world tat is no jealous.

u r really giving me reasons... trying to avoid me...
which really hurt me most

i know how much i say also, u wont accept me back. because u just wan the new girl instead of me.
if u really wan me, u will accept me first then only discuss... Like how u first love me.
but u change so much.

so i know my answer....
all these while i guess im the one who get stubborn. so sorry for troubling u.
begging u to be with me, also cant get through.
I AM TOTAL USELESS!!

2010-09-12T07:16:00.000-07:00

MY ASS THAT YOU SAY I'M SAME OLD SHIT!

I DARE YOU TO GIVE ME AN ANSWER RIGHT NOW RIGHT AWAY, DID YOU IGNORE THOSE IDIOTS?

BAKA!

YOU NEVER! COS YOU WANT TO HAVE SEX WITH THEM!!!! ASSHOLE!!!

2010-09-12T05:38:00.000-07:00

One word to describe you, BITCH!

Cant live without guys.

Cant live without sex.

Cant live without having them to call for sex.

what can you live without? ME! you rather give up on me! those ham ka chan call you for sex, invite you to their house and you dont ignore, you only ignore me!

What else you know beside having sex? going out with guys? THAT'S ALL YOU KNOW!

YOU NEVER CARE ABOUT WHO ARE CARING FOR YOU! you know? you know fuck la! you only know those care about you got no intention! PUI!!! FUCK THEM UP! COS YOU YOURSELF ALSO A WHORE!

TAMIE CHAN I HATE YOU FOREVER!

2010-09-06T12:04:00.000-07:00

congrats on everything you wished and wanted.
i dont know how you get it but i dont care now.
cos, i'm going to work my ass out to get double of what you had and what you wished for.
i'm not gonna lose to you and of cos i dont wanna lose to myself.
i'm getting ready for the new experience and the day shall come soon.
*clink clink*
i'm competing you is because... yeah, you dump me... i want you to regret for it. and i want to be 10 times better than your exs! photographer? pharmacy? teacher? sales?
i dont care who they are, but now matter what it takes, even sacrificing myself, i will!!! reach the stage i want now.
I dont care is right or wrong, i just wanna do it. Because i deserve a better life. And go on ignoring me. I dont even wanna care what you're doing. I dont care who you're dating with, having *** with whoever, i dont care! IS TOTALLY NON OF MY BUSINESS!
If you're doing the things i hate, i'll do them back to you!
Continue ignore me if you like, cos now you're so heartless in my heart. but i still want to win over you!

2010-09-04T12:21:00.000-07:00

I'm disappointed of your actions, is this how we should treat others?
Oh yes, but only on certain ppl. Like those inviting you to his house, asking for *** and you know who la... and now i know, especially your ex, well, you'll ignore them until some time later, you miss them, you'll call them la, sms them la, msn la, facebook la. Then you'll say things like i wanna know you more la this la that la... This is you. I think i should just forget about you. You're the same, same like what i've face before with other girls. At first i thought you'll be the most special one to me, and you really made me love you till today.
Well, love takes both sides to be together. And i'm just clapping my own ass, lol...
Is up to you la, i dont want to talk more about you. It's not worth for me to mention or defend for you. I'll just let myself be alone and stay away from you. Hope you'll have a wonderful life.
*Hopelessly still waiting for you to get back together with you*

2010-08-21T05:52:00.000-07:00

I'm just a stupid fellow who loves someone that doesnt loves me...
Well, what to do? Even tho get loved also sympathy love, not true love...
EDMUND! YOU FAIL!!!

2010-08-17T14:00:00.000-07:00

1) Accept
- then i dont think or consider about going canada

2) Decline
- i dont deserve for chance, then might as well go for migration and start a new life

i've pray hard for an answer, i hope i dont get the msg wrong from God...

2010-08-17T02:10:00.000-07:00

Planning to go canada ^^
Good bye malaysia?
Still considering......................

2010-08-14T22:35:00.000-07:00

He has love u with an every lasting love. Live up your life. Make sure there is no regrets. Do what u feel like doing. :)

So the conclusion is, you can do anything, you can even hurt the one you love. You can dont need to care about his feeling.

Knowing you date idiots, knowing you flirt with idiots, knowing you miss the days with idiots and the worst, knowing you INTEND to go some idiots house! LIAR!!!!!!!

YOU SAID YOU'LL SCOLD AND BLOCK IF SOMEONE ASK YOU THOSE THINGS! BUT YOU NEVER DID! AND YOU INTEND TO!!!! I WONT GIVE YOU SECOND CHANCE ANYMORE!
GOOD LUCK TO YOU! YOU PISSED ME OFF NOW!

2010-08-12T06:35:00.000-07:00

Hiding the truth is your best ability!

2010-08-12T05:20:00.000-07:00

You! made me who i am today. Dont blame me. I'm not the one to be blame. Is you, you lied. Just because of that lie and things you said, you forced me to this level of jealous.
I asked, either one of us you must choose, but you never... fine... i have enough of it now. You never made me trust you but you made yourself untrustworthy in me. You never find a way to cure me but you want me to do it myself. How selfish you are...
That's fine if you want to keep all the stupid idiots contact in your fb or phone. Continue give them chance to ask you stupid questions.
Curse those idiots! Especially the one you lie to me and the idiot sugar daddy! CURSE THEM! CURSE CURSE CURSE!!!
COCONUT! KEVIN BOEY! JIN! JOSHUA! DEEJAY! AND ALL THE IDIOTS! CURSE YOU ALL!!!!!!!!!

2010-08-07T04:18:00.001-07:00

Ish!!! Still having flu!!!

OneManga down

2010-08-07T00:29:00.000-07:00

OneManga.com is down.

mangastream.com is my next choice ^^

2010-08-06T14:23:00.000-07:00

It's 5.30am now... woke up half way of sleep :(
I think i'm too full to sleep...
But it's not an good idea not to sleep at this time since i'm having a serious flu... used up 1/3 of tissue roll...geez...
The best part now is, i'm listening to One Republic's song - secrets.
This song is the main song for "The sorcerer's apprentice". Which i've watch it with Tamie last week. It's really a good movie to me. Rate 8/10.
Okay...gonna try to sleep again...hopefully i'm tired enough...
Nitezzz!

2010-07-30T22:47:00.000-07:00

Not sure what will happen tonight...
I hope it's not the last day of dating.

2010-07-29T02:34:00.000-07:00

Figuring out myself!

What's next?

I need to try harder!!!

I WONT GIVE UP!

I've spend enough time on work for the past 7 months since december 2009, i need to climb up again. I really dont want to let you down! Climb climb climb!!! Come on!!!

2010-07-21T09:25:00.000-07:00

Had great days since monday.

Meet up 3 days in a row.

Surprisingly no argument at all.

But cant be too happy yet.

Cos we dont know about tomorrow.

But i'll try to keep things simple and easy.

Hope to have a smooth week with her ^^

Wishing for the best with her.

Thanks Tamie... Thank you for open up my heart (scolded)

2010-07-18T10:27:00.000-07:00

i'm so tired...

need a break...

wanna go for a trip...

of cos with Tamie...

but i dunno...

when she'll be free...

but i need to save...

money....

2010-06-21T10:28:00.000-07:00

I need a break?

Guess so...

Cos i'm mentally and physically drowning...

But lucky that i still have her support...

If not...i'll be dead...

And yeah, i'm gonna get a off day this coming wednesday!

Movie time!!!

2010-06-18T11:34:00.000-07:00

w00t!! what a busy day for me and not a good day for me as well...ish...

worst scenario is i got a slip and fall on the kitchen floor right after i come out from the office!

:(

now both arm and ass is bengkak!

2010-06-13T11:46:00.000-07:00

what u mean by "dont work so hard yea" ???

i dont get it? what makes u say that or u just randomly saying that to me?

2010-06-10T09:26:00.001-07:00

402 now :)

2010-06-10T08:37:00.001-07:00

403 days to go...

will i get there???

2010-06-03T10:41:00.001-07:00

Everytime i see your list increase, i feel so left out :(

2010-05-31T06:00:00.000-07:00

i'm sorry... i'm forced to do so to you...

it's just because that i dont want to hurt you anymore and i'm sorry to made you hate me...

please forgive me...

2010-05-29T09:18:00.000-07:00

It's been days we did not talk to each other... Only sms but nothing much from her tho... just asking me to read bible... that's it? :(

Is ok i think... God knows what is best for me and i shall wait for results...

2010-05-27T00:54:00.000-07:00

My life is horrible... What should i do about it? I've been praying for a better life but still...nothing as i wished for came true.

I just want a better life, but why is it so hard to have it? My life is so miserable!! All the bad things always happen on me!

Let me do some counting ah...

1) not having a stable job
2) fail in relationships
3) no money
4) divorced
5) not owning a car
6) no house
7) bad mentality
8) no education
9) selfish
10) jealousy
11) naive

Haiz... i'm really SUCK!

2010-05-24T07:18:00.001-07:00

LIES!!!

WHAT U TOLD ME IS ALL LIES!!!

FLIRT! DATE! LIES!

THIS IS THE MOST I HATE AND U'RE DOING IT!!!

SAY NO GUYS GOING FOR THAT MOVIE? NAH!!!

2010-05-23T11:25:00.000-07:00

I felt so wrong and regret this time...stupid me did it again!

I'm so regret of hurting you again...

I'm sorry.....

2010-05-23T06:05:00.000-07:00

Janeh...それは残して時間だ

2010-05-22T04:18:00.000-07:00

Kinda sad seeing you say i'm a shit and even letting a idiot saying that as well, why cant i have you defend for me? =.=''

Not sure will i be calm or not. Hopefully i will. I will not let you have the chance to say that again. never....

2010-05-22T03:32:00.001-07:00

I MUST TAHAN!!!

JUST DONT CARE ABOUT IT!!!!!

2010-05-17T07:49:00.000-07:00

She's so cute today when we had our dinner, hehe...

Really happy with you today ^^
Love You Tamie <3

2010-05-15T05:03:00.000-07:00

How should i start...hmm...

It's been happening alot of bad things on me lately.

I really want to change. I'm so Weak! Useless! Stupid! Annoy! Bad temper!

But i'm glad... someone that i love the most is still helping me.

Even tho she's fierce, angry and scolding me all the time, but i know she wants me good.

She's waiting for me to change. In her heart, she's still waiting for me.

And yeah, today, the remaining count down days is 444!! haha...

Hope the days will be shorten for us to get back together again...

Only hope and wait for now while i'm doing what is needed.

I'll be there soon...for sure...

Cos no other person she cares about but me. Of words she had told me, i trust her. She'll never betray me or lie to me. I know it now.

Tamie, thank you and I Love You.

2010-05-15T05:00:00.000-07:00

Bad night and bad sleep.

Neck is not recovering until i went for treatment.

I was suffering from pain while i'm sleeping and woke up because of it.

I was trying to sleep to keep the pain away but still the same...

Then force to wake up and get a glass of water and take a pil of panadol.

I should say this was the most terrible headache i ever had.

2010-05-14T19:16:00.000-07:00

Suffering from neck pain again...

Tried to stick the medicine on it but still no use...

It's killing me during the night! Getting migraine till i wake up for panadol.

But no use, what i need is a good position and comfortable to sleep.

Trying to ice my neck from now on. If still cant help, i really dunno what to do le...

4 days in a row...... ISH!!!

Depressed!

2010-05-12T03:50:00.000-07:00

So depressed today!

1) Rush to pick the 3 myanmars up at 1pm
2) Dont know the exact place of the klang bus stop
3) Kissed ppl's car
4) Wait more nearly 2 hours in the car for 1 bloody myanmar
(suppose to reach at 1pm but almost 3pm only he reach!)
5) Bring them to the site and suppose to meet up before 3.30pm at CapSquare, KL.
6) Had problems with renting the room for myanmars. Need RM 820 CASH to get the room.
7) Paid the money and no more money to buy stuffs for them.
8) Waited for Aaron to bank in another RM 800 then only i can go settle the stuffs.
9) Panic! My limit of withdrawal is only RM 1000 a day! Then i called Aaron up and lucky, he told me the limit could be change and how.
10) After buying stuffs, i'm lost! I dont know where's CapSquare! Even though the house is near CapSquare but i'm still confused! All the tall buildings are blocking my sign!
11) Went to get my car, paid my ticket, search for my car, OMG! I'm lost again!!! I even went to the loading bay and it closed up right after i pass the gate. But lucky, i found a small door and went through it but i'm still searching for my car!
12) While searching, i'm so panic, again! I ran to B2 basement and run to find my car. Finally, i found it after searching for around 8 mins. DAMM!!!
13) JAM! JAM! JAM! Took me 1 hour plus to reach home!
14) Front gate got block by car!

I totally got no idea why is this happening to me today. Panic, tired, depressed, pain and hungry!
Did not eat anything at all! Gosh!!!
But after this post, i'll have my dinner at home...finally...

2010-05-10T07:48:00.000-07:00

What a funny day.

I change my relationship status from single -> It's complicated on fb, so many people come and keh poh about it...haha...

I think my friends care about me being single for some time at this age eh? I dunno...

And i'm kinda happy today during dinner. Went to fetch her at our usual spot. Then went to pudu for porridge steamboat. Cos it's a cooling day and the rain just stop not long ago... While driving, my neck was pain. Due to my sleeping position, i think... Then she massage for me. I'm proud to say that it was the best massage i ever had :D

While sending her back, i suddenly think of McDonald but i dont know what to eat or do there. Then she suggested to have an ice cream there :D so we went...

Happily ordered 2 ice cream and finished eating it... Then when going back that time, she ask me to buy those sticky sticky thing to stick on my neck. She suggested me a brand but i dunno about it. So we went to bought it together at 7-11. Hehe...

2010-05-09T00:00:00.000-07:00

:)

The movie, ip man 2. I was waiting and waiting to watch with Tamie. But too bad, she never wait for me. She watch with someone... I dunno who did she watch with, but is ok, as long as she's happy, so I'm happy with it.

Yeah, lonely sunday lonely movie. I'll go watch myself later. haha... 1st time ever...

2010-05-08T21:17:00.000-07:00

Yeah, what comes around goes around...

I deserve it...by not having movie with her today...

Having a lonely sunday!!!

Agan and again 2

2010-05-08T05:46:00.001-07:00

If there's someone other than Tamie is reading this, I wanna tells that, me, Edmund, failed to keep my promise towards Tamie, failed to make her happy, failed to not stress her up, failed to be the one she love...

I've fail her too many times...everytime also say promise promise...but in the end? I made her cry again and again...

Tamie, I'm Sorry for what i've did to you...deleting your stuff again and again...accusing and assuming...

How i wish you could come slap me now.

Again and again....

2010-05-08T04:08:00.001-07:00

This time, Tamie proves me wrong again... Yeah, i know it should be because i always use the hard way... always so unconscious of what i say and do...

Thank you Tamie. Thanks for your kindness towards me, again...and again...

Sorry Tamie for breaking your heart...again...

Things is happening again and again within me... I know but i dont control! FTW!!!

2010-05-07T19:00:00.000-07:00

Had the weirdest dream of my life and scary too...

I dream that i'm went for a swim, then went for a water slide...

During the slide, i saw a corpse...yes, a dead man!

Argh...was so ugly and really makes me vomit during the dream...

wtf!

I've never wanting to go for slide at all and this came to my dream. I really dunno what msg is that all about...damm...

2010-05-05T13:40:00.000-07:00

Screw things up!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Feel like getting slap by a pancake?

Edmund!!! I Hate YOU!!!

2010-05-04T04:32:00.000-07:00

Sakit~!!!

Back still pain leh!!!

Tot she can help me massage abit but she refused to do so :(

Ice ice!!! Keep icing it myself le...

2010-05-03T04:11:00.000-07:00

Movieeeeee!

I'm still waiting for the date to watch ip man 2 and iron man 2 !!!

I'm so excited to watch this but too bad, my date doesn't want to watch during weekdays and even in the weekends...

I hope she can try to spend her weekends with me to watch this le... and i hope she's fine...

2010-05-03T04:09:00.000-07:00

Injured...

My leg (drumstick) so pain after a fall in a court yesterday... (slippery court)

Hopefully i can recover asap and i need to train my strength. Couldn't last long while i play.

2010-05-01T05:37:00.001-07:00

Wonderful night for yesterday and wonderful day for today ^^

Thanks for making it happen my dear <3

2010-04-25T03:52:00.000-07:00

When 1st mom says, dad wants to divorce, my 1st reaction which i never thought so, i cried...
What's this suppose to be mean?
Argh!!!

2010-04-24T23:45:00.000-07:00

Will you still be by my side after all had happen?
But i hope for it...because i'm such a loser...
I cant afford to lose you...

2010-04-24T20:30:00.000-07:00

I really dunno how to react on this matter...
I'm just trying to identify this sex clip is it from her cos if it is, then i'll look for the one who uploaded it and kill him!
But what i got is i'm dirty minded and so on...
It couldnt be help with explanation anymore.
We just need to cool down for some time and i'm in a pain right now will all the problems i'm facing...

4/25/2010	7:02:18 AM	+A^^i3 StUpiD GirL ® ™ -- 어리석은 갤 ----	Edmund - 463 days to wait -	let me tell u one thing
4/25/2010	7:02:28 AM	+A^^i3 StUpiD GirL ® ™ -- 어리석은 갤 ----	Edmund - 463 days to wait -	u already have in mind that im so slutty n bitchy
4/25/2010	7:02:36 AM	+A^^i3 StUpiD GirL ® ™ -- 어리석은 갤 ----	Edmund - 463 days to wait -	n it has made a serious mistake
4/25/2010	7:02:42 AM	+A^^i3 StUpiD GirL ® ™ -- 어리석은 갤 ----	Edmund - 463 days to wait -	towards my life
4/25/2010	7:02:51 AM	+A^^i3 StUpiD GirL ® ™ -- 어리석은 갤 ----	Edmund - 463 days to wait -	it made me unclean in ur presence
4/25/2010	7:03:19 AM	+A^^i3 StUpiD GirL ® ™ -- 어리석은 갤 ----	Edmund - 463 days to wait -	n that makes u thinks how impure i am
4/25/2010	7:03:19 AM	+A^^i3 StUpiD GirL ® ™ -- 어리석은 갤 ----	Edmund - 463 days to wait -	im no longer worthy as in price of a woman
4/25/2010	7:03:56 AM	+A^^i3 StUpiD GirL ® ™ -- 어리석은 갤 ----	Edmund - 463 days to wait -	because u always thought me making love, bringing man back, going to man house n other such activities that are unclean
4/25/2010	7:04:14 AM	+A^^i3 StUpiD GirL ® ™ -- 어리석은 갤 ----	Edmund - 463 days to wait -	n it has direct u to think that, is that me....
4/25/2010	7:04:18 AM	+A^^i3 StUpiD GirL ® ™ -- 어리석은 갤 ----	Edmund - 463 days to wait -	is that her.....
4/25/2010	7:04:38 AM	+A^^i3 StUpiD GirL ® ™ -- 어리석은 갤 ----	Edmund - 463 days to wait -	to the butt of the woman, u say it might be me
4/25/2010	7:04:45 AM	+A^^i3 StUpiD GirL ® ™ -- 어리석은 갤 ----	Edmund - 463 days to wait -	how unfair it is to me?
4/25/2010	7:05:02 AM	+A^^i3 StUpiD GirL ® ™ -- 어리석은 갤 ----	Edmund - 463 days to wait -	in this world, many woman have my size of my body
4/25/2010	7:05:10 AM	+A^^i3 StUpiD GirL ® ™ -- 어리석은 갤 ----	Edmund - 463 days to wait -	n by that u say it was like me
4/25/2010	7:05:35 AM	+A^^i3 StUpiD GirL ® ™ -- 어리석은 갤 ----	Edmund - 463 days to wait -	how unpleasant it is, when i first heard u saying it through phone
4/25/2010	7:05:55 AM	+A^^i3 StUpiD GirL ® ™ -- 어리석은 갤 ----	Edmund - 463 days to wait -	how pain is my heart, that someone who love me, does not even trust in me
4/25/2010	7:06:06 AM	+A^^i3 StUpiD GirL ® ™ -- 어리석은 갤 ----	Edmund - 463 days to wait -	n watching all these porn site
4/25/2010	7:06:26 AM	+A^^i3 StUpiD GirL ® ™ -- 어리석은 갤 ----	Edmund - 463 days to wait -	n im getting fed up with it
4/25/2010	7:06:40 AM	+A^^i3 StUpiD GirL ® ™ -- 어리석은 갤 ----	Edmund - 463 days to wait -	because u been taking things to talk everytime
4/25/2010	7:06:57 AM	+A^^i3 StUpiD GirL ® ™ -- 어리석은 갤 ----	Edmund - 463 days to wait -	u r over protecting me which i dont need in such protect way!
4/25/2010	7:07:08 AM	+A^^i3 StUpiD GirL ® ™ -- 어리석은 갤 ----	Edmund - 463 days to wait -	these are useless to protect
4/25/2010	7:07:22 AM	+A^^i3 StUpiD GirL ® ™ -- 어리석은 갤 ----	Edmund - 463 days to wait -	it has done means done...
4/25/2010	7:07:38 AM	+A^^i3 StUpiD GirL ® ™ -- 어리석은 갤 ----	Edmund - 463 days to wait -	it cant go back to the past to rewind things not to happen
4/25/2010	7:07:52 AM	+A^^i3 StUpiD GirL ® ™ -- 어리석은 갤 ----	Edmund - 463 days to wait -	pls.....
4/25/2010	7:08:08 AM	+A^^i3 StUpiD GirL ® ™ -- 어리석은 갤 ----	Edmund - 463 days to wait -	if people dont mind ur past, can u do it so to others>
4/25/2010	7:08:10 AM	+A^^i3 StUpiD GirL ® ™ -- 어리석은 갤 ----	Edmund - 463 days to wait -	??
4/25/2010	7:08:14 AM	+A^^i3 StUpiD GirL ® ™ -- 어리석은 갤 ----	Edmund - 463 days to wait -	i dont think so
4/25/2010	7:08:22 AM	+A^^i3 StUpiD GirL ® ™ -- 어리석은 갤 ----	Edmund - 463 days to wait -	u r takingit to talk over n over again
4/25/2010	7:08:26 AM	+A^^i3 StUpiD GirL ® ™ -- 어리석은 갤 ----	Edmund - 463 days to wait -	it is sucks!

2010-04-24T19:58:00.000-07:00

Daddy is asking for divorce with mom...

Mom told daddy that she's a Christian now and this is what happen to her.

I really dont understand my daddy...

What should i do beside praying?

There's so many things happening to me now...i really dont know what can i do...

Hope someone will be here to help me.

2010-04-24T00:42:00.000-07:00

i'm so blind...so so BLIND!

2010-04-23T05:55:00.001-07:00

Argh! Mistakes AGAIN!

Sorry to my dear Tamie...once again i've made you angry...

I also hope not to let you down but what happen just now shows that i'm still not there yet...

I dont think i've did my best, but i'll keep it up and try harder!

Hopefully you'll change your decision...i'm sorry for what happen...so sorry....

2010-04-22T07:17:00.000-07:00

Just came back from squash and dinner...

Suppose to go for 2nd round, snooker, but due to my body aching and headache, so we decided to play next time...

Before writing this, i was in the toilet, using the Oceanus body shampoo to wash my hands. Guess what? It reminds me of her. I still remember the 1st night we slept together which i've deeply fall into her body smell. She used to using this Oceanus body shampoo previously. But i got no idea why does this smell reminds me of her strongly... I'm not thinking too much, but it's just couldn't resist of thinking about it...

I wish some day i can stay beside her and smell at her again...

2010-04-21T07:14:00.001-07:00

Very much i need to thank her...

If it's not you were here by my side, i'm doing a big mistake again...

Thanks for reminding me again and again...

And thanks for helping me replying to my ex boss...

You made me understand more and more...

Love ya lots my dear Tamie <3

2010-04-20T10:03:00.000-07:00

Just came back from genting...hehe...

Hanging around there for 1 hour and come back :P

Wanted to stay there longer, but she's too tired and sleepy...but i'm still happy...

Thanks Tamie for accompany me ^^

I Love You Tamie~<3

2010-04-19T18:17:00.000-07:00

Sad and happiness happening around me...

Sad with my job, got fired...

Happy with my relationship, going better with Tamie...

Too long and a little lazy to blog about it. Will update when the mood is here :P

2010-04-14T06:41:00.000-07:00

Thanks for cheering me up and open up my mind ^^
Feel so relief now and you made me smile :D
Love you Tamie

2010-04-13T07:28:00.000-07:00

Tiring weeks are approaching...
Jobs are getting more and more...
Good sign, but not good for me :(
Work for me is getting more...pressure as well...
Mind was so tired...really need good rest at home (sleep!)

I was really wishing you could stay beside me all night long..hugging you like never before... hopefully this coming friday you'll be here with me :)

2010-04-10T23:03:00.000-07:00

This call respect?
Telling others about me being wrong and did not say what u've did wrong?
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-04-10T06:22:00.000-07:00

Happy goes lucky for me today!
Had a nice nap, so so for lunch, nice movie and nice dinner too...
Really had a good outing even with 2 hours plus sleep and tiring body.
Looking forward for the next outing with her again...
Si beh song ah! (hokkien) haha....

2010-04-09T17:12:00.001-07:00

Just came back from genting...
Work there and did not sleep at all...
Worst part is, rain and misty up there...even kl was raining...so hard to drive :(
Suppose to book a room and stay there, but too bad...full house...
Only left superior suit which cost RM 279!
After this i'm gonna take bath and SLEEP!!!

2010-04-06T08:33:00.000-07:00

I'm crying on my bed...
Why is this happening to me?
Why i can control my work but not relationship?
WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Jealousy is KILLING me!!!
I need to learn how to let go!!!

2010-04-03T09:27:00.000-07:00

Had a great nite with her.
Went dinner and movie.
So comfortable...
Hope we'll continue a better progress.
And not disturb or influence by others.

2010-04-03T00:07:00.000-07:00

Strange...Do i really have 6 sense?
What i foresee had just happen.
It's really funny and hard to explain.
I got promoted to be Production & Sales Coordinator Executive (such a long title, lol)
It is already in my mind before promoted.
There's alot more to go...learn, try,think and do...uh...pressure is getting more and more...
But i dont care la...just do whatever needs to be done, let tomorrow have its own day.

2010-03-30T06:35:00.001-07:00

not feeling well and having light fever...

caught in rain lately....haizzz....

weak!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-03-27T19:23:00.000-07:00

247 days has past...

483 days more to wait...

should i wait? i really dunno what to do...

2010-03-26T16:38:00.000-07:00

how i wish to know more about you.

but you seems to not tell anything.

dont understand why you dont trust me.

really hope we can tell each other anything.

2010-03-25T07:28:00.000-07:00

waiting...

did ur phone died off without batt?

dunno??

i'm just waiting for ur call...

miss u so much~

cos u asked me not to disturb u that much...

2010-03-24T15:50:00.000-07:00

Wow...

A short msg can really cheer me up ^^

Hopefully this wont end or stop...Because i really need you by my side~

2010-03-24T08:50:00.000-07:00

Finally, i'm back from 2 working trips. Kota bharu and kuantan...

Miss someone so much when i was there...really hope to meet her again...

Hopes.........

2010-03-22T14:19:00.000-07:00

Will be missing you when i'm not in kl...
Leaving to KB and Kuantan today.
Hope we'll be in touch most of the time through phone.

Miss you and Love you my Baby~<3

2010-03-14T06:18:00.000-07:00

Loving u deeply!

Let me guess...u fall in love with someone?
If it's right, i'm gonna say congrats to you...and wish you all the best for you both.